When Expectations Don’t Meet Reality

When Expectations Don’t Meet Reality

It’s something we go through all the time, struggling toward what we want out of our lives while at the same time realizing it’s never going to be exactly the way we want it to be. One of the most difficult things to live with is the idea that the perfect situation for our life is out there somewhere just waiting for us to find it, but knowing that the odds of us ever finding it are slim to none. Just about everyone ends up having to settle for something far less than what they really want because we finally come to understand that it’s just not worth worrying after anymore and being satisfied with what we can get leads to a greater sense of contentment.

For myself, I’m really having a hard time with the fact that my career goals just don’t seem to be moving in the direction I really hoped it would. For the last couple of years, I’ve been preparing for the hope that I would be able to get on the road with my travel trailer, working remotely from my home office while I move about the country to see the nation I spent more than a decade of my life in service to. Unfortunately, as with most things it’s the details that cause a plan to sink or swim, and those details just aren’t lining up as I am getting very close to the end of my current job.

The first obstacle is the fact that a true mobile internet solution still has not been developed for those of us who wish to be able to take our internet connection with us. There are many options for the kind of service I’m looking for, but unfortunately they all have fairly low caps on the amount of high speed data they provide for mobile hotspot service. Using my phone for most things would be fine, even watching streaming services because I can display the screen on my television for pretty good quality, but for work and gaming I need my computer and that’s when the data really starts getting used up.

The Starlink internet service was supposed to be my saving grace, providing mobile and unlimited high speed internet anywhere in the world. This was supposed to be a reality at the end of this year, but unfortunately the delays caused by COVID-19 have pushed that back at least a year. The other part of that is the fact that they haven’t unleashed their truly mobile version of the service, though they state it is on their list of features to add.

Not having a reliable option for internet service for work makes finding a work from home an unreasonable option at this point. If I can’t be fairly sure that I’ll have a solid internet connection wherever I go, I can’t really commit to an employer on a full time basis. It’s quite frustrating to be so close to what I want only to be stymied by the fact that world events are conspiring to make everything so much harder.

The technological aspect is only one side of the problem, however. In addition to the unavailability of high speed mobile internet, I’m beginning to notice a severe drop in the number of job postings that are listed as “remote” or “work from home”. More and more I’m seeing listings that are showing up as single location positions, requiring the employee to be on site and in person. It seems that the pandemic hasn’t really shaken loose the traditional view of employers who desire their employees to be under their thumb all day long.

What’s frustrating about this is the fact that we’re told that employers are desperate to hire people, yet they aren’t offering positions that are convenient for us. A great many of the jobs that we do today here in the first world are perfectly viable for remote work without requiring the employee to actually be there in person, yet employers still can’t seem to get over the need to have direct control and access to employees. This is supposed to be an employee’s job market, and we’re supposed to be moving into the next evolution of how businesses are run, but unfortunately many people are too attached to having people around them to accommodate this new way of working.

So that’s where I stand right now. Internet technology is on the brink of being ready, but I’m likely going to have to wait at least another year for it. The work revolution has started, but it’s still too early to be likely to benefit me right now, so who knows if I’ll ever find something that will actually allow me to work from my home office anywhere I choose to be. As with most things, the dream is on the cusp of being realized, only to be smothered by the details.

Life can be pretty cruel sometimes.

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